If someone had told me ten years ago, or even five years ago, that I would be playing host to a half-alien person, I would’ve thought they were nuts. Even today, after having gotten to know Tobin as well as I have, there are times when I still find it difficult to believe. After all, there can’t be too many people in the world who actually believe life exists anywhere else in the Universe, let alone that said extraterrestrial life forms have covertly invaded our planet!
When I think of it in those terms, it really sounds crazy. But hey, crazy is what makes life interesting, don’t you think?
Well, whether I believe it or you believe it, here I am hanging out with this half-human on a semi-regular basis while learning to think in an entirely different way than I ever could’ve dreamed I’d be doing. I mean, just looking up at the night sky has taken on an entirely different meaning to me. Used to, I’d look up and think how pretty the stars were and I’d wonder how far away they were and even how far beyond that was Heaven. Now, I know there are many inhabited planets up there with creatures much like us who are just going about their lives the same as we are. They suffer the same struggles we do and have to figure things out the same, too.
In a way, though, it’s made things here seem a little less bearable. Last night, for example, I found myself staring up at the stars almost wishing I could go there, wishing there were someplace up there that would offer a simpler, less complicated way of life. But, who’s to say things would be any different there? If I went there, someone there would have to go through what I’m going through here – covering up the fact that he or she knows something the rest of the planet hasn’t yet been clued in on.
This isn’t simple, you know? I have no idea why I was the one chosen to be shown the things I’ve been shown, or why Tobin chose to divulge the secret of his very existence to me. I’m not complaining, mind you, but getting through each day without being able to talk with people about it, to say, “Hey! Look at this! Isn’t it great?” is not fun! It makes me feel like someone sitting on the outside of a crowd where no one can see or hear me. It’s kind of like the character Stuart in the movie Kate and Leopold. At one point he goes on about how he’s a dog who has seen a rainbow, but that none of the other dogs believe him – all because dogs can’t see color. Now, of course, we know dogs can actually see color.
How’s that different from my situation? I wouldn’t have believed had I not met Tobin, seen the things I’ve seen, felt what I’ve felt. So sure, I get why people don’t believe. The kicker is I need them NOT to believe! I need people to think what they think – not only for me, but for Tobin as well. But it does make for a lonely existence. I guess I shouldn’t be whining about not being able to talk about things out in the open with everyone. But again, knowledge ain’t all it’s cracked up to be.
Anyway, I did want to send a special shout out to #Muse. The concert was great and Tobin and I really enjoyed ourselves. He was singing and moving to the beat by the end of the concert, the same as the rest of us and it was good to see. He really seemed to relax and have a good time. I don’t think that’s a common thing with him. So thank you.
As for the books, I’m still pluggin’ away. Still haven’t signed with an agent, but there’s always hope. I will keep at it and eventually someone will take notice. This would not have been given to me if someone somewhere hadn’t wanted it to be shown to the public. Who am I to have been given this information? I’m no one. So, this had to have been given to me so I would create this story and get it out to the public. And that’s why I will never stop. I may die trying, but I’ll keep writing until it’s all down on paper and then, I’ll keep sending the queries until I can no longer. Someone will finally read it and take a chance on this unknown author.
Until then, I would encourage any and all who are interested in Tobin and our story to send me your questions or comments. Either he or I will get back with you as quickly as we can.
If I don’t hear from you or get back on the site before, I wish you all a very Merry Christmas!
Teagan Brody is author of Sci-fi/Fantasy novels. Her writing helps guide the people of Earth toward a better future. Her most common expression is, "What would Thomas Shelby do?"